-- it's all coming down * faith

[JAYDEN HARRIS KNIGHT]

the vampire sat up on his bed, breathing out shakily, nervous for the first time in, well, ever. he never got nervous - the feeling had cropped up inside a number of times over his life, but he had always succeeded in beating it back, deep down inside. not today, though. today, the feeling corrupted him internally, making the butterflies go crazy in his stomach and his head do a thousand spins a minute. because today, jay was going to see faith. even thinking that name made him shudder at the moment. the two had been the best of friends - doing everything together when they were younger; laughing, playing together. that was, until jay had been turned. after that things were never the same between them, no matter how hard he had tried to show her that he was still the same person. and now, jay had finally heard that she was here, in london. after all those years, he was now finally going to see her again. he guessed that this was his last chance to convince her. although he had never wanted to admit it, jay had always felt a little something...extra, for faith. but of course, he was thirteen at the time, how the hell was he to know what that extra thing was? he understood now, though, but jay forgot about it for now. right now, as long as he could get her talking to him again, nothing else mattered. he wanted his best friend back - rather badly. jay smacked either side of his head at the same time, finally standing up. any human would be lying on the floor drooling after that but, thankfully, jay was made of stronger stuff.

walking across the room, jay plunged his arm into the wardrobe as if it was the entrance to narnia. he yanked out a random black t-shirt with skulls and snakes on it, a pair of dark jeans and his converses. today he didn't care about appearance - nothing else was important today. he'd stay there all fucking day if he had to - this needed to be made right. he quickly put his clothes on, slinging bracelets onto each wrist and his yin-yang amulet around his neck. the one his mother had given him. sighing at the memories of her, jay slammed shut the wardrobe and quickly checked himself in the mirror. looking at the vampire gazing back at him, he didn't smile as he usually did. instead he met the reflections' gaze, holding it until the reflection blinked. shaking his head he snapped out of the daydream trying to suck him in, and snatched his keys up off the bedside table. stuffing them down into his pocket, he went into the bathroom, drenching his face in cold water. jay looked up into the mirror, small droplets falling back to the sink. he bit his lip and sighed again, heavily, drying his face before grabbing his phone, and locking the door behind him. he couldn't believe how nervous he was. at one point he had had to clench his fists in order to get his hands from shaking. it was only faith, right? this was the person who had been his best friend for so long, surely she would want to make things right as well? jay stuffed his phone into a different pocket and bowed his head, as usual when he was walking, and set off to faith's.

jay left his building and vaulted over the little wall, as usual, rolling and standing up. even with how nervous he was, he couldn't help but smile - he always did that. a friend had told him where faith lived, and luckily it wasn't that far away. glancing up at his surroundings, he saw the warm smile of the sun meet his stare, almost lighting the path for him, as stupid as that sounded. he shook his head and increased his pace, stopping when he reached the steps of faith's place. jay glanced up at the building and breathed in deeply, letting it out again shakily. reaching the top of the steps, he glanced at the screen to the side of him, seeing which one was hers'. before pressing the button, he just stood there for a while, trying to come to terms with everything. what had even happened? he didn't even know why they had drifted apart all those years ago. all he knew was that he had missed her so much over that period of time, and he needed her back in his life a lot. With a bit lip, Jay reached forwards and held the button for faith's apartment in, and took a breath before speaking. "...faith...it's me, jay...let...let me up..." he let go of the button, somewhat ashamed of how he had spoke. jay never ever spoke like that. he was always this confident, outspoken person. but there was something about faith this time that made him...hesitate. so there he stood, stuffing his hands down into his back pockets, watching an insect crawl aimlessly up and down on the building,waiting for some, any, response.

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[FAITH ATTICUS UNDERWOOD]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

faith sighed, rubbing her dry and tired eyes; she hadn't had any sleep since she was trying to write a book. and she didn't want it just to be any book - but an excellent heart stopping four hundred pages kind of book. a book that got sold, basically. and got her out of the lousy bar she worked at. so far, it was okay, but nowhere near as good as it needed to be for her to achieve the ridiculously difficult job of getting herself a publisher. taking in a long breath, faith saved her book document on her laptop and shut the damn thing down. she exhaled and leaned back in her wooden spin chair. closing her eyes for a moment, faith almost drifted off - breaking her rule of never sleeping during the day. and she needed not to break that rule for her life to run smoothly with her iron control over it. faith let herself have the peace of another sigh and decided to pull herself together. for some reason, her gut was telling her she needed to look half decent today; something was going to happen. faith didn't know whether it would be bad or good, but either way - she needed to look presentable. and definitely not wearing an oversized hoodie from her old high school back in california and grey sweats, teamed with her bright pink and white stripy socks. faith didn't even want to think about her matted hair and hygiene right then. she needed to sort herself out, that was what. pulling herself together, faith got off her chair and stretched, feeling her back crack at least four times.

she walked to the bathroom and after turning the shower on, faith shedded the dirty writing clothes to the white tiled floor. after half an hour in the hot shower, faith felt like a new person. her matted hair was clean and poker straight, her writing clothes were long forgotten in her washing basket, although, faith needed to get dressed desperately since she only wore a towel to cover her modesty. but, she thought to herself, since she wasn't in any kind of rush, eating then getting dressed would be a good idea. as soon as the thought zoomed into her head, faith's stomach rumbled. "alright, i'll get you something to eat, just wait." yawning with tiredness, faith walked to her secluded kitchen, cornered off from her living cum bedroom. opening her fridge, faith let out an annoyed groan - the only thing in the entire fridge was sour milk. how perfect. glaring at the fridge as though it would make some edible food appear, faith slammed the fridge door shut and decided to have a glance in her cupboards; hoping they would keep some food in there. crossing her fingers as she opened one of the cupboards, faith smiled. she had rice. that was good enough food, right?

faith practically threw the packet into the microwave, praying to god that it tasted alright. she needed food, and faith was one hundred percent sure that the rice was the only food she had in her entire apartment. setting the timer for two minutes, faith leaned on one of her counters, beginning to daydream. she had to admit, this life was a million times better than it was down in california. she had no one to tell her what to do over here, no one telling her how ugly her various tattoos where - how they defaced her beauty. no one making her hate vampires just because her stupid mother didn't understand them, and neither did her organisation. just thinking about her mother and the anti-vampire organisation she set up back in america set faith's blood boiling. she hated her mother and that was exactly the reason why she left america for london. she didn't choose london by accident, either. faith remembered how her mother and herself had visited the famous capital when she was seventeen, her mother was on business, since this was far before vampires 'came out of the coffin'. they'd had a row the night before; something that faith hadn't experienced ever with her mother, but had a lot of it to look forward to in later life. in a fit of anger, faith had rushed out of the hotel room with some money and the clothes on her back. she had left her mother for well over a day when she met jayden. jayden. faith's heart beat faster and faster in her chest. even though she knew she was being stupid. she had met him on a street corner - faith was four years older than him and she had asked him for help. though, in her defense, he looked a lot older than he was. she, at first sight, thought he was around her age, for god's sake. when she approached him, she had no money left and was beginning to want to kill herself for her stupidity - she needed her mother. of course, since london was so huge, and faith was lost - she asked jayden where her hotel was from where they were. apparently, she was about a mile and a half out. and that was it; the start of their friendship. of course, after a few years, they had drifted off in their own separate worlds and never talked or wrote again. "...faith" faith blinked, wondering if it was her imagination or she really was hearing his voice again. "...it's me, jay...let...let me up..." she gasped just as the microwave pinged. it was jayden. here to see her. in a daze she held the buzzer in to let him up. then she realised that she was just wearing a towel. "shit."

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[JAYDEN HARRIS KNIGHT]

waiting there felt like a lifetime. being a vampire, jay had unlimited time, but that was beside the point. the point was it had already been so long, he had waited to see her ever since they had parted ways that first time they had met. on that street corner, when he was just a thirteen years old kid. back when he was a human. it almost didn't sound right, "back" when he was a human, because personality wise, jay hadn't changed at all. that was what he was waiting for. to show that to her. he brought his hands out of his pockets and played with the bracelets around each of his wrists, kicking his feet against the ground lightly. he didn't even know what he was going to say. he had barely managed to blurt out something to her in the first place to tell her that he was here, for gods' sake. words and phrases started swimming through his head, pushing everything out making faith the only image in his head. it had been that way for a while now. recently jay had started to miss her so much more each day, he practically jumped on the friend that had told him she was right here in London. the words were all jumbled up in head mind and he had no idea how to set them all out in order. why wasn't it easy? she was just a friend, right? right? maybe that little extra thing he felt when he was thirteen wasn't just something stupid that he didn't understand. maybe...and just maybe...jay had deeper feelings for faith. but surely he couldn't risk telling her here, now? the purpose of this was to get her trusting him again, not to pour out his heart to her. that could come later, when they were Kay again, he guessed. if they were Kay again.

after a little while longer, jay sighed deeply, accepting the feeling of rejection. he turned to walk back down the steps just as he heard the buzzer vibrate - faith, letting him up. jay bit down on his lip, once, before pushing the door open, letting it slowly close behind him. he breathed in and out deeply as he walked up the stairs, looking around him slowly as he went up. what the fuck was he going to say? what was he going to do? everything that would never phase him normally was suddenly confusing him so much now. he clenched, and unclenched his fists every now and then as he stepped up the stairs, trying to keep himself calm. this wasn't supposed to happen to vampires, was it? surely they were not meant to be phased this easily, surely they meant to keep calm no matter what, surely any other vampire could handle talking to a friend. why was he finding this so hard? jay reached the top of the stairs, glancing behind him before walking across the landing. he stopped in the middle of the landing and closed his eyes, sensing which one was faith's. he was aware that he could have just read it from the wall, but he wanted to see if he could still control his abilities. jay found her room, and walked across to it slowly, scuffing the carpet as he went. he was hoping that seeing her face would completely calm him down, but he knew that he wouldn't. even when he was thirteen, he knew that faith was attractive, really attractive. probably even more to him now, but hopefully that wouldn't affect anything at all. hopefully.

jay stopped right outside her door, biting his lip but finally letting it go, worried that he'd be left with nothing there at all. jay closed his eyes for a second as his fingers on one hand clasped around the door handle. this was it - the moment he had been waiting for for so long now. he opened his eyes up and pushed down on the handle, breathing in once more before pushing the door open. and there she was, exactly how he remembered. he blinked once, in a very noticeable way, realizing she was only wearing a towel, which at best was short. he didn't care, it was faith, it really was. all the memories of the first day he had met her came flooding back so quickly, so much clearer than they were before. jay fought back a smile, quickly looking around faith's home, but then focusing his stare on her, not looking away for a second. all of her tattoos were still there, obviously. back when he was thirteen, he had thought they were all so cool, and now, they just looked great. jay reached behind him and pushed the door closed, staring at her still. "...hey..." was all he could muster up. Better than nothing, he thought to himself. he didn't know what to do. so he stayed where he was, resting his back up against the door he'd just closed. hopefully she would say something, because jay was too starstruck, like he was just frozen to the spot. jay bit his lip once more, a bad habit he had developed years ago and hadn't yet grown out of. he guessed he never would grow out of it, but he didn't care about it right now. right now, there was only her.

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[FAITH ATTICUS UNDERWOOD]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

"what the fuck have i done? he's coming upstairs. to my apartment. and i have a towel on. which is short," faith was shouting to herself, in the grips of astonishment, wonder and hyperventilating. she was also rushing around her apartment, trying to make it a little more presentable. "i can't believe this, he's walking up to my apartment. i wonder what he looks like. i wonder if he's still the same. i wonder if he's still so gorgeous and if it still feels wrong in a good way to like someone four years younger," faith could hardly breathe, she was whizzing around, trying to find some clothes; she needed clothes on. for god's sake, she was in a towel that if she sat down, he would get a hell of a lot more than an eyeful of her. "i can't believe this. everything is so messy! it needs to be perfect for jayden." she was so busy with cleaning everything up that she completely forgot about putting her much needed clothes on, which showed how freaked out she was. faith was always in control; but not now. she never was when it came to jayden - she wasn't in control the first time she met him and faith wasn't in control now. she always seemed to fall to pieces whenever anything had anything to do with him. she glanced over at the door, midway in conversation with herself and noticed the handle turning. faith shuddered to a stop and her eyes widened - she had been waiting for this moment for more than five years. and here he was. stepping into her apartment. she closed her eyes and there he was, shutting her apartment door after himself. faith gasped. he was gorgeous. long dark hair that made her heart beat faster and faster until it was beginning to hurt. he looked just the same as he did when he was thirteen. just... older. faith's heart skipped a beat.

for once, she didn't know what to say. faith was spellbound by his handsome features, his hair, his entire being. she knew in that instant that she had missed him unbearably and now that jayden was back, she was never letting go of him ever again. some part of her screamed that she loved him, and most of her brain agreed. apart from the sensible side, which said quite clearly that she couldn't love someone she had met once and hadn't seen for six years. usually, faith listened to her sensible side - but never when jayden was around, never when he was in the conversation. jayden made her forget about control and sensibility. he made her live. he made her love. he made her sure that there was such a thing as soul mates. her muscles began to twitch; it was killing her seeing him standing there and not enveloping him in a huge bear hug. she needed the physical contact that faith had denied herself for years. she needed jayden in her arms. "hey." that word had faith's heart thumping in her chest, wanting to escape from the clutches of her body and jump straight into jayden's arms. faith took a deep breath in and exhaled.

"jayden," she smiled and couldn't take it anymore. faith ran to him and wrapped her arms around him. "i've missed you so much." she became comfortable around him, as though he was her home. because faith was hugging jayden so much, she forgot to hold on to her towel. the next thing she knew was the feel of soft material around her ankles. her hazel eyes widened and her cheeks blazed red. "oh my god..." faith didn't know what to do. if she jumped away from jayden to retrieve her towel, he would see her full package, and, although she didn't mind so much, it was just so embarrassing for her to finally see him since six years ago and become naked in front of him straight away. faith knew that jayden must think of her as a slut. a disgusting slut who wanted to fuck him. sure you do, a part of her said. her blush tumbled down her neck and was so red, she knew her face looked as though she was sunburned. faith couldn't just stay there, attached to jayden, either. that made her look as though she was really prudish, which wasn't the best idea, either. fuck it, she thought. "as you can see," faith giggled, still not knowing what to do. "i have more tattoos than you can see with clothes on." trying to figure out what to do when she was naked next to jayden was just... impossible.

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[JAYDEN HARRIS KNIGHT]

"jayden...i've missed you so much."

he couldn't help but smile as she spoke the words he'd been wanting, no, needing to hear for the last six years. all of the worry, all of the doubt just drifted out of him and away as she spoke, and even more as he felt her arms wrap themselves around him. jay did the same without even thinking about it twice - something that he usually always did. he slung his arms around her toweled waist, hugging her tightly, close to him. it was different to one of their hugs six years ago. six years ago it was almost like faith had been looking after him, like he couldn't look out for himself. but now the feeling was completely different. it was like, it had to happen, that it was absolute fate what brought both jay, and faith to London, and living so close to one another at that. jay locked his hands together around her, tightening his hold that little bit more, making sure not to hold too tightly. as a vampire, there was a very fine line. holding too tightly would probably snap her like a twig if he wasn't careful. he just couldn't believe the whole situation - here he was, after six years, finally reunited with the best friend he had ever had. it sounded weird, he knew, seeing as faith was four years older than him. surely a best friend should be somebody your own age. but nobody had understood jay like she had, nobody had been there for him as much as he had and, truthfully, he had never wanted anybody else around. as long as faith had been there, he didn't care who else was - he didn't need anything, or anyone else at all.

"oh my god..."

waking up from his daydream, he realized what had happened, glancing down at the towel covering half of his feet. "oops..." he came out with quietly, sticking his tongue out briefly even though she couldn't see it. accidents happen, he guessed. the whole thing didn't make him loosen his grip and yes maybe, just maybe when he was noticing the towel at his feet he had seen a little more than he had expected to see, but that didn't mean that he was about to just open up his heart and kiss her right there and then. did it? jay held onto her still, chewing his lip as he looked around the room, searching for an answer. now came the doubt again, almost laughing as it re-entered his entire system, mocking him. he never doubted himself. even at thirteen years old he had felt confident enough to speak to faith, who had been a complete stranger. what had changed since then? well, puberty had happened, for one. jay was "all grown up" now, nineteen years young, and that was how he was going to stay. also, the feelings he had for faith, they had changed as well. back when he was thirteen, faith had been his best friend, but that was all he had felt, because she had been seventeen at that time, anything more would have been...awkward back then. but the same feeling that would have felt awkward back then, didn't feel awkward now, even though there was obviously still the same age gap between the two of them. jay stood chewing on his bottom lip.

"i have more tattoos than you can see with my clothes on."

jay laughed slightly at the words. one of the things he had missed the most was her voice. he loved the way it just sounded right through his head, echoing over and over, as if his head was just empty space. "yeah...maybe a few more, i guess..." he replied, leaning back slightly and sticking his tongue out so she could see this time. he still had no idea what to do, and was trying to make it seem like he was Kay, that everything was fine when, really, he didn't have a clue what to do. here she was, faith, the best friend he hadn't seen for six long years, naked, standing right next to him. he came to the conclusion that it wasn't just him, and that anybody would struggle in a situation like this. again the words began to flow through his mind, and again he found no way on deciphering any of them. jay found his hands wrapping and locking around faith's waist again. he had missed it. he had missed hugging her. whenever he had needed one six years ago she had always been there - it felt nice to finally have that feeling back after so long. but again, the way he held her waist when he was thirteen was different to how he held it now, at nineteen. instead of hands being curled up, they were locked together, flattened against her back lightly. all he could do was look at her in his hold - he had given up hope of finding any words for now. looking at her was good enough at the moment because, in all honesty, it wasn't a bad sight at all.

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[FAITH ATTICUS UNDERWOOD]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

"oops..." faith laughed at jayden. 'oops' indeed; she was naked. with a nineteen year old guy who she hadn't seen since he was thirteen. she really couldn't express how completely embarrassed she was. finally, she had met jayden again and now, she was naked. although, it was quite relaxing, still feeling his arms around her naked body. for once, faith calmed - it just felt... right. "it's a little bit more than oops, jay," faith finally felt as though she better voice her concerns. "how exactly am i supposed to get my towel back?" she couldn't help a nervous laugh bubbling over the surface. faith knew she was acting completely stupid around jayden, but that was exactly how he made her feel; giggly and embarrassed at the drop of a hat... or perhaps a towel. faith closed her eyes and took a deep breath in; jayden smelt of cinnamon and her mouth literally watered. she wanted to kiss him. right there and then. her eyes snapped open and widened - faith wanted to kiss jayden. it was then that she felt his hands back around her waist, tighter and splayed across her lower back. her breathing hitched. his hands on her bare skin felt amazing; she never wanted him to stop holding her. it just felt right. everything with jayden felt right. her control issues never reared its ugly head whenever jayden was on her mind; all she could think about was him on good days. on bad... well, not even faith wanted to think about that. he was here, right next to her, holding her and making his cinnamon scent drive her nuts to kiss him; faith wasn't ruining this moment.

closing her eyes again, faith was immersed in jayden's cinnamon scent, and before she knew it, her lips were on his and she was kissing him passionately. for a moment, she didn't even realise what she was doing. once she did, faith pulled away. it felt so right and perfect. but she didn't want to ruin the moment - she wasn't sure he liked her that way. and if he didn't, jayden would be seriously freaked out by now. "well, i've screwed that up, haven't i?" faith tried to smile, but failed. she snapped her eyes shut, bombarding guilt on her mind. telling herself how stupid she was; jayden didn't really like her. he was only keeping his hands on her lower back because he didn't want her moving away from him - he didn't want to see her body. he wasn't really attracted to her. faith gulped and fought her way out of his embrace. it was difficult, but eventually, she did it. faith was surprised that she was able to, since jayden didn't look like he was weedy and not able to keep a girl from escaping. as soon as she was free of his embrace, faith ducked and grabbed the towel; realising this was exactly what she should have done in the first place.

as soon as the towel was around her body, faith straightened up. knowing she had probably flashed jayden a lot of her tattooed flesh, she backed away from him, her cheeks flaming with guilt. "i'm - i'm sorry jayden. i'm stupid..." faith cleared her throat and stood away from jayden, feeling more and more awkward by the second. unconsciously, she began to rub her arms as though she was cold - a habit faith had of lowering her stress levels and feeling more in control of the situation. she wondered what she should do; to change the subject. after a minute of silence and the unbearable awkwardness of the situation, faith realised that her rice was still inside the microwave - as soon as food entered her thoughts, her stomach rumbled like she hadn't ate in weeks. faith backed away from jayden towards the microwave in her kitchen, not once taking her eyes from him. faith felt so bad for kissing him - it was practically as though she had lead him on. her guilt wouldn't stop. she opened the microwave and took the packet of rice out. instead of opening a cupboard and tipping the rice into a bowl, she decided just to eat it from the packet. "d-do you want some?" knowing she had to be a gracious host to jayden, faith offered him some of her food and waited for a response - her guilt racking higher and higher about the kiss as she waited.

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[JAYDEN HARRIS KNIGHT]

"it's a little bit more than oops, jay"

although being fully aware that faith was probably being serious, he couldn't help but smile. he didn't care about her tower dropping; it was faith. jay cast his mind back to when he was just a little thirteen year old human again. he remembered the day after meeting faith for the first time, when he ran into school that morning and yelled, "i just met the coolest person!" to all of his friends. naturally some of them took it the wrong way, got pissed off and didn't speak to him again. jay had told his friends about her: her personality, her tattoos. "they're like paintings but...they're there all the time!" he had no idea how he could remember the day word for word, but he could, so clearly. even though the six year gap had seemed like forever to him, now none of that seemed to matter at all. all that mattered was that they were both here, as if they had never parted ways all that time ago. jay let his mind amble through the rest of his memories. all of the people he had told, yet he never got the chance to tell his mother about faith before she died. he had told his dad, but jay knew that he was probably too drunk to remember what he had said. bastard. jay had cried and cried for days after going to his mother's funeral, but he didn't even go to his dad's. why should when really, he hadn't' acted like dad at all. he had acted like an Ares all through his life, and now he had finally paid the ultimate price for it.

his eyes widened by themselves when he felt her lips pressed against his own. was it really happening? jay tried to get himself to wake up but then realized that he already was - this wasn't a dream. this was happening. he held onto her waist tighter, pulling her closer for that moment before she pulled away. jay let her, chewing his lip once more. he knew he must have looked stupid, doing it all the time, but he couldn't help it - he wasn't going to grow out of a habit. "well, I've screwed that up, haven't i?" jay didn't speak; he was too frozen by what had just happened. she had kissed him. faith had actually kissed him. hey noticed her struggling in his grip, and loosened it slightly, making it easier for her to break out. of course jay could have held on if he wanted to, his arms were muscled plus he was a vampire - strength came naturally to him. plus, almost nobody knew about his martial arts. that made him happy; the fact that he had something that only a very select few people knew about. he didn't watch, but sensed faith bending down to snatch up her towel. "i'm - i'm sorry, jayden. i'm stupid..." again, jay didn't say anything. what could he say when that kiss was the only thing on his mind? it would be for ages now. he noticed her blush, realizing now that he probably wasn't showing any color change because of his paler skin, but he could feel it inside. the shock, the amazement. it had really happened. faith had kissed him. but now, the silence was awkward, it always was, as he watched her back away from him.

"d-do you want some?"

jay knew the answer to that. hell, faith probably knew the answer to that. the answer was no - jay was a vampire, he didn't need food, just like he didn't need sleep. he didn't blame her for asking, she was only being nice. as she always had. once more his mind wandered back in time, to the day they had to say goodbye; well, that was the first day. he had hugged her so tight and cried when he got home - jay hadn't wanted faith to see him cry. he missed her straight away, and for six long, grueling years he had done the same. until now. now, here he was standing in the same room as that same faith - the only difference was that this time jay was stupid enough not to be saying anything. he released that it was about time he said something. jay walked through into the kitchen, joining her. he glanced at the rice in her hand, and shook his head from side-to-side the slightest bit. "no..." was all he said before picking the rice out of her hand, putting it down beside the microwave. he had to go for it. he just had to. he slid his arms back around her waist and angled his head, kissing her just as passionately as when she had. he closed his eyes, already enjoying the moment, but hoping that it wouldn't end. he hoped with all he had that she wouldn't pull away a second time. if it was awkward after the first time, a second time would be unbearable. he joined his fingers together around her, again making sure that he didn't hold her too tightly.

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[FAITH ATTICUS UNDERWOOD]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

faith could kick herself - she had totally screwed everything up with jayden. she glanced over at him; he was still standing there in his stunned silence. quite obviously to faith, he hadn't wanted nor enjoyed the kiss, even though she had. had she, really? yes. faith's hormones went crazy just thinking about it, which was a good sign she had liked it. the thing was; jayden hadn't. her heart sank, realising the situation for what it was. she had definitely screwed everything up. just like she had with her mother and her father who she had never met. he hadn't wanted her, which was why he had deserted her mother and faith, the newborn baby. she had ruined her father's life and now, she had ruined her relationship, if she could call it that, with jayden. he was, really, the only reason she had moved to london - and now faith had killed it; her life. she didn't know what she had been thinking; obviously, she hadn't been at all. jayden was four years younger than her - she knew it would never have even worked out if he had enjoyed the kiss and actually responded. doubt circled her mind; perhaps, jayden and faith would make a good couple? if he liked her back. which was stupid even thinking about it. he hadn't responded to the kiss.

biting the side of her lip, faith scrunched up her eyes; wanting this situation to end and never to see jayden again. it was so.. awkward; not just because she had kissed him, but because he hadn't responded. her heart ached thinking about it. she blinked and knew she had to do something; not just stand there like a lemon. faith sighed and grabbed a fork from one of the kitchen drawers; she began eating her food. not really waiting for jayden to respond from her question. she gulped the rice down - faith hadn't realised how hungry she really was. "no..." faith looked up at jayden; it was a good job he hadn't wanted any of the rice, she was almost half way through the packet by now. her heart ached from looking at him - faith wanted him and since he hadn't responded to the kiss, she couldn't have him. why she did it in the first place, she didn't know. for all faith knew, he could have a girlfriend; a wife; a partner; kids even. he could be gay and she had kissed him. beating herself up over jayden, she didn't realise how close he was until she could smell his cinnamon scent. she glanced up and was met with his shirt in front of her face. she felt his hand around hers, moving the rice packet and fork from her hand to next to the microwave.

her heart skipped a beat. what the hell was he doing? the thought lingered until she felt his lips on hers. jayden was kissing her back - he was kissing her back! faith could hardly breathe with excitement; he was kissing her. and it was utterly perfect. she couldn't get enough of it and she hoped to god it would never end - she could spend all of eternity there in his arms. his cinnamon scent entwined around her until faith just relaxed into the kiss, loving the feel of his hands on her back. after a while, faith needed to break the kiss for some air. as she pulled away, she found it difficult. and not just human difficult. screwing her eyes up again, she realised jayden was a vampire. faith had known that anyway, but the fact had just dropped into her mind. she really was stupid; he could do pretty much anything he wanted, since vampires were so strong. sure, jayden was her friend, although she hadn't seen him for six years, she still counted him as that sort of person. but still, faith didn't fully trust him. she trusted no one; it wasn't just personal to vampires or to jayden. faith found it difficult to trust because of her constant control over her life; she just couldn't let someone be able to do anything they wanted to her. she had to be in control. even if it didn't always work out like that with jayden - especially not with jayden. "i need some air, jay." she smiled at him, wondering if he really did like her or was using her for some ulterior motive. no, she knew he wasn't. jay wouldn't do that to her. "and," she laughed. "i need some clothes on."

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[JAYDEN HARRIS KNIGHT]

the moment was perfect. he had taken that big risk, and kissed faith back after an awkward silence. and the best part? she was kissing back. it felt just...great. it was everything he had ever imagined it to be. jay hoped that she wouldn;t pull away. he kenw that she would need to eventually for air, being only a human, but still, he didn't want it to end just yet. it was the best thing ever. even then he knew that, in his head, that still sounded like the small thirteen year old human who had met faith on that very first day. maybe he was too stuck in the memories of her then. jay brought his head back, to now, and opened his eyes whilst kissing briefly to see her, before shutting them again, happy with the situation. the only thing that could spoilt it now was faith remembering that he was a vampire. she hadn't mentionned that yet and, jay guessed that that was one of the main reasons why the two had stopped writing to each other. personally he didn't see the problem. so yes, maybe now he was faster, stronger and immortal, but really, nothing had changed. he was still the same person - inside there was still the heart of that innocent little kid who was so happy. but he had a problem. everytime something made him happy, something else came along to completely ruin the moment. like when he had first met faith - that only lasted one day, and then they didn't speak for six years straight. so right now, he expected something to end this perfect, even though he didn't want it to.

"i need some air, jay."

he smiled back slightly as she did, and let go of her again. but he could sense something - an ability that had came along as soon he had been turned. he could sense it, he could see it when he looked in her eyes. jay just knew - it was a gut feeling, that she didn't trust him completely. even after everything even after that first when jay had gotten closer to her in one than he had with anybody else in his entire life. what she had said was fair enough, he knew it would be coming, but still, it made him think a lot. jay didn't know for sure if she actually liked him. maybe she was just, leading him on or something. but the good half of his brain eradicated that idea straight away; even if they hadn't spoke for six years, jay knew faith, and he knew that she wouldn't do anything like that, especially not to him. jay drifted deeper into his thoughts, toying with all of them. it had happened so quickly; one minute he was saying hello to her after six years, and the next second they were kissing. it felt right though. that was the weird thing. six years apart, and then suddenly, out of nowhere a kiss happens and it felt right, like they hadn't been apart for so long at all. jay tucked his hands down into his pockets, finally taking a chance to look around faith's place. it was evident that she hadn't been expecting him, as he hadn't given her warning, plus the place was...a little untidy. but he didn't care about any of that. faith was here, that was all that mattered.

"i need some clothes on."

jay smiled again and laughed slightly, trying to beat back the feeling of slight rejection dwelling inside. he knew that she would have to break the kiss for air and to put some clothes on, but still, because it felt so right, it hurt a little when she broke away. he nodded slightly. "yeah, go get some. i'll wait outside your room." jay replied to her, resting his back against the wall, next to a door which he assumed led to her room. he would wait here for her to come back, then he would have to wait and see what happens next. he wanted her to be able to trust him completely. as stupid as it sounded, jay had total faith in faith, he trusted her with anything and everything. he would tell her absoultely anything, and he wanted her to know that she could feel the same. jay folded his arms, pressing his back fully against the wall, waiting for her to change. he knew women had a stereotype of taking a very, very long time to get dressed - hopefully faith wasn't one of those girls. but it was a good thing in a way, he guessed. if she was like that it would give him some much needed time to get his head together properly, instead of just aimlessly trying to join his memories togetehr piece by piece. so he waited, resting his head back against the wall, humming the tune to a song he couldn't remember quietly. right now, song titles were the last thing on his mind. it was like everything else had completely frozed around him.

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[FAITH ATTICUS UNDERWOOD]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

as soon as the words were out of her mouth, faith had a feeling from jayden's expression that he felt a little rejected. she bit the side of her lip, taking in a deep breath, she hadn't meant to hurt jayden. she just really, really, needed some clothes on. being in a towel for this long wasn't good for faith; she needed to be dressed and ready for the world. otherwise, nothing would get done. "you know i have to," she grinned at jayden, still biting the side of her lip and still feeling bad in a way. "alright, wait outside my door. but the couch would be a lot more comfortable, you know, right? i may be a while, i may not." faith laughed as she passed jayden and kissed him quickly on the nose before rushing into her bedroom and closing the door behind her. closing her eyes in contentment, faith leaned against the wood of the door. everything was working out brilliantly; she was pleasantly surprised. usually, everything fell apart when anything in her life had to do with love. opening her eyes and exhaling, faith wondered what the hell she was going to wear.

glancing around her bedroom, she realised that it was a complete mess. she really needed to tidy it up, but right now, she knew that she didn't have the time needed; it would take faith at least half an hour with extremely loud music to tidy it well. her clothes were thrown across the room and various pieces of rubbish littered the floor. sighing slightly, faith grabbed her hair brush from the near by dressing table and gave her long black hair a quick brush - she would dry it once she had her clothes on, to save time. her eyes skimmed over an empty packet of cigarettes. "well, shit." faith had a feeling she had needed to buy something, and there it was. she needed more cigarettes. now. such a shame she needed to get dressed. and faith had no idea if jayden even liked people smoking; she hoped against hope he did. faith had been smoking for five years now, and habits were hard for her to stop. biting her lip hard enough to almost draw blood, faith told herself to ignore the cigarette craving and continue with getting ready. jayden was more important than cigarettes. he was her life. not nicotine. she just needed to control this and she would be fine. after thirty seconds of deep breathing faith was there; in control again. she didn't need any damn cigarettes - she would get them later and her craving could wait until then before bothering her again.

thirty minutes later and faith was dressed in white biker skinny jeans that were almost skin tight; a long black top with short sleeves and a cut down where her cleavage was, flaunting it quite nicely; black stiletto boots that reached her knees and a huge pair of hoop silver earrings. smiling at herself in the mirror, she twirled a piece of her black hair between her fingers, she looked lovely. her black hair was tamed into a side bob, with some small wispy pieces of her hair falling around it. taking a deep breath and grinning wider to herself, faith stepped out of her bedroom to face jayden. "want to talk?" faith smiled at him, her heart melting. faith sat on her couch, beckoning jayden to come and sit with her. she really didn't know why he just didn't sit down whilst she was getting ready. he must have become tired standing there, she realised. then her mind clicked into place again - jayden was a vampire. he didn't get tired. ever. faith bit the side of her lip again, feeling stupid. it was weird thinking of him as a vampire since all she could remember him being was a sweet little thirteen year old kid who helped her out with directions and made her form a crush on him. she smiled at the memory and glanced back to jayden; he didn't look much different. maybe it was just faith being stupid and thinking he would change in his personality because he was a vampire and not a human anymore. although, her sensible part of her mind reminded her - she didn't know if he was with the vampire mafia or not. he could have crossed over to the evil side for all she knew. the thought made her heart almost stop beating. she trusted him, sure, but to a certain point. that point was the highest she would let anyone get to. once there, they stayed there, and never got past. faith knew, for some reason, jayden would probably get past there. even if no one else did.

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[JAYDEN HARRIS KNIGHT]

"i may be a while, i may not."

he smiled slightly as his nose creased up by itself as faith kissed it, before running off into her bedroom. jay slumped his head back against the wall, where it had been. what a typical girl response that was. he knew now that it could be as quick as five minutes, as long as an hour or anywhere else in between the two. why did girls always have to take so long to get changed? mind, he did have to hand it to them, most of the time, the longer a girl took, the better she looked, so it wasn't like jay was going to complain if faith was in there a while. jay decided to take the time and use it wisely. he pushed himself up off of the wall, and moved to the center of the kitchen, closing his eyes. time for a little martial arts training, he thought. it was a shame that he couldn't really do his park our in the house. well, he supposed he could try, but he doubted that would end very well, for both jay, and faith's place. now that was something nobody knew about - his park our. but really, how was he supposed to tell anybody about that? he couldn't just walk up to somebody and say "hello, i run across buildings!" jay stretched his arms out, brought they both up in a cycle around his head and th rusted them forwards, as if he was punching someone in the stomach, rather hard. he jumped and span in the air, swinging out a kick but judging it perfectly, so nothing in the apartment was knocked, or even touched. smiling in satisfaction, he relaxed his muscles and went back where he was standing earlier, leaning against the wall near faith's room.

because of the practicing he had been doing, it didn't seem like very long had passed when faith emerged, although he was aware that it had probably been at least twenty minutes, maybe even more. again, typical from a girl, he thought. but god, was it worth the wait. faith looked, well, she looked great, lets just leave it at that. her jeans clung to her legs snugly and her hair looked effortlessly beautiful. kind of like that first day he met her. he remembered literally bumping into her on that day. he smiled slightly, aware that he would look stupid - smiling at nothing but the air around him. jay had shown her the way back to her hotel, or something like that - they part of the memory was the only part of it that was a little hazy, that wasn't clear. he guessed it was because he was so swept up in everything else about her: her looks, her personality. just, her in general. an amazing person. and now, even after that little awkward silence that had occurred, all he was able to think about were those good time, and how happy he was because of them all. that was a good thing, right? it had to be, right? why did live have to be so fucking complicated? why couldn't a person just meet another person, fall in love and then live happily ever after? no, it only happened like that in hollywood - hollywood, where the vampires can't go out in daylight and wear fucking capes. relationships were nothing like those hollywood films. they were way more complex, way more emotional, way more difficult.

"want to talk?"

jay smiled slightly. he headed over to the couch as she beckoned him, gently leaving a kiss on her cheek as he sat down, close to the side of her. "of course i do..." he spoke softly, quietly. he didn't understand why - he never spoke like that around anyone, ever. he was always this outspoken, confident person, who wasn't afraid of arguments and he always spoke his mind. but whenever he spoke to faith, all jay could ever manage was this soft, tender little voice. maybe it wasn't a bad thing. most of the sappier girls would probably think it was adorable. urgh. what the hell does voice have to do with anything? you don't like anybody for their voice do you? jay waited for faith to speak. he was distracted, he was too busy looking at her. he didn't look away at all, not even blinking as he looked at her. it finally hit him how much he had truly missed her, he had never missed anyone this much at all in his life. not even...not even his mother. as much as it pained jayden to come to terms with it, it was true. it sounded horrible, but it was true. he missed faith more over those six than he did his mother. jay waited for her to speak, resting his hands on his legs, hoping that there wouldn't be another awkward silence here. he knew deep inside that there wouldn't be - despite meeting her only once, he felt like he knew faith well enough to know that things wouldn't be awkward between them. so he waited, a slight smile playing on his lips.

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[FAITH ATTICUS UNDERWOOD]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

faith felt jayden's gaze on her and she smiled. she knew their relationship was good now; no awkwardness, no silly mistakes of not keeping in touch. and faith had finally realised her true feelings for jayden - everything was perfect. she loved him. he kissed her back, implying he liked her back. faith let the corners of her mouth curve upwards in happiness. she turned to meet his gaze and grinned; it was almost as though he was transfixed with her; he couldn't take his eyes off her. the thought made faith's grin wider and her heart begin to flutter in her chest like a butterfly wanting to be free. faith was so happy she had found jayden when she was seventeen; the encounter had changed her life forever. and here he was, in her apartment after six years of not seeing each other. they had kissed. she sighed contently, for once happy with the world and being in it. her own gaze followed jayden walking towards the couch; he sat down next to her and for a moment, faith thought her heart would explode from her chest.

it was official; she definitely loved him. much more than she had loved anyone in her life before. it was almost as though he was her knight in shining armour; there to help and protect faith from everything and everyone. jayden always took her mind from the bad things and made her think about the happy memories she had with him, even though they had only met once, barring today. faith remembered the conversation with him six years ago in this very same city - he had been telling her about his school life and how he had tonnes of friends, in his little london accent that made her heart melt then, let alone now. the memory warmed her heart and as jayden turned towards her, faith had to stop herself from reaching out and kissing him again. she wanted to talk. and faith knew if they started kissing again, no talking would be done. only kissing would be achieved, since jayden had those lovely soft lips that killed her to pull away from. "of course i do." faith blinked away her daydream of jayden's lips and focused. she wanted to talk, so she was going to talk.

faith smiled at jayden. "right, i may become serious here... so actually listening to what i'm saying might help," faith laughed, trying not to seem as serious as she felt - acting serious in a situation with someone she was close with, although faith hadn't had too much experience with close friends, faith knew wouldn't help the conversation and would probably sour the mood. she didn't want that with jayden and her - she loved him, even if he had just appeared back into her life. "obviously, you're a vampire now. i'm not stupid, so i'm imagining that you came here to see if you were still in my good books. and," she grinned. "as you can see, jay, you're in my good books. i'm pretty supportive of you vamps, but not your leaders or anyone who controls others - 'cause that just isn't right. but, i want you to know that i trust you as much as i can trust anyone." faith paused, unsure of what to say - knowing that her words were awkward. "basically, i'm a really untrusting person... and i find it difficult to trust people. you're not one of those difficult people, but i can't let people high on my trust... i just can't. i've been let down so many times - i know you probably won't let me down and that i'm being stupid. but i'm in a habit. and it's hard to stop," faith winced at her words. they sounded so... cruel said aloud. "i'm sorry, jay." her gaze dropped down to her hands, biting her lip as she waited for his retort.

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[JAYDEN HARRIS KNIGHT]

"so actually listening to what i'm saying might help,"

he nodded slightly as she laughed, the slightest of smiles on his face. jay was well aware that a good talking to was probably on its' way. older people had always thought they could do that - just be able to tell him what to. but now it balanced out, because jay was going to be older than everyone in the world at one point. maybe she knew that jay drifted in and out of his head sometimes, and maybe she was just warning him. he did still do that - he had done it back when he was thirteen, and he still did it now. another thing that was pretty much the same was his accent. living in london for all of his years makes it pretty obvious how he was going to sound. however, he was thankful that is was not the strongest of london accents, however is was strong enough so that everyone else in the world could probably recognize it. personally he wasn't the hugest fan of it - but most people around the world seemed to be in love with british, london accents, for some strange reason. it wasn't the most attractive of accents in jay's opinion - what about french, or italian girls? now they sounded good. he blinked once, realizing he had let it happen again, and looked across at faith, telling her with her eyes that he was ready to listen to what she had to say, no matter how serious it was. he could handle serious stuff - he guessed - he hoped, anyway. well, the only serious thing that had happened to him was his mother dying and, that admittedly had not went very well for him. but maybe this would be different.

jay listened intently as she spoke her speech, about supporting the vampires to some extent and how she was an untrusting person and how she couldn't let people gain too much of her trust because she was scared. he nodded every now and then, proving he was listening to her, but he still didn't understand. if faith wouldn't trust jay properly, then who would she trust properly? with everything? he trusted her with anything; if he wasn't immortal he'd trust her with his life. her words stung slightly as they sliced through the air and into his atmosphere, but he absorbed the slight pain. if he showed that they had hurt him slightly it would only turn the conversation down an even worse road. plus it wasn't that big of a pain from her words, jay was just over-reacting, as he usually did. he realized now that there was so many things wrong with him: he over-reacted, he drifted in and out of his head far too much for a sane person and now even his best friend couldn't trust him with everything. he forgot about it; as long as she trusted him to some extent, it wasn't so bad, but if something were to happen between them, jay hoped that she would grow to trust him further. those same hollywood movies he had mocked seemed so perfect now: where the couple fell in love instantly, got married and the film ended with them running off into the sunset, happy together. but no, reality was never that simple. reality was cruel, it was harsh, and jay knew he would have to get through this, because he wanted to be in faith's life one way or another.

"i'm sorry, jay."

shaking his head slightly, he knew that she didn't need to be sorry. jay didn't want to go ahead and change the person who faith was. he didn't want to change that amazing person he had met six years ago because, so far, she seemed exactly the same as back then, which was just what he had wanted. he lifted one of his hands, placing it down on her leg instead, speaking quietly, his accent shining through once more. "you don't need to be sorry...really..." finished speaking, he left his hand where it was, almost in a reassuring way. jay kept his hand still, looking around her place once before looking back at her, not looking away. it was almost like looking at faith calmed him down, looking at her made everything okay again, looking at her him relaxed. everything inside him realized and, for once, jay stayed out of his own head, completely focused on something else. someone else. he smiled slightly at her whilst waiting for what came next, because obviously there would be something, he just didn't know what. hopefully it would be a good thing, there had been so many negatives in jay's life. his mother dying, his father being a useless alcoholic right up until his death, the foster family who, despite trying their best, were truly horrible and then just your typical stuff that happened to most people every day. he wanted something good for a change, something he would remember. maybe faith was it.

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[FAITH ATTICUS UNDERWOOD]

SOMETIMES I FIND IT HARD
• to believe there's someone else who could be •
JUST AS MESSED UP AS ME

faith knew she'd said wrong. she could trust jay... just she couldn't let him get past this part of her. she just couldn't. she understood that, once again, she'd probably fucked up the relationship with her cruel words. and the only person she could blame was herself. really, faith wanted to at least try to trust jayden, but because she had never been that far with someone before - it freaked her out. everything about their relationship screamed awkward because of what she'd said. to her, this just proved that the relationships with celebrities and in movies were wrong; people couldn't just see each other and fall in love effortlessly. realising this, faith wanted to try to trust jayden; he was the best thing that had happened to her life. and surely, she could trust him, right? it was jay. "you don't need to be sorry, really." faith shut her eyes, feeling the weight of the guilt on her shoulders. she needed to be sorry - her mind was all over the place. it didn't help that she needed a cigarette. right there and then. she needed one. faith's eyes snapped open; she had to have a cigarette - her cravings were beginning to kill her. faith felt a touch on her leg and her eyes glanced down at jay's hand. it felt good; great, even. but faith's guilt was beginning to really rack on top of her shoulders - she felt so bad for jayden. he'd came here, quite obviously, to sort things out between them. and this is what he got? kissed and then told she didn't trust him. surely, that would hurt. it hurt faith, let alone jayden. she didn't even want to think about how he felt.

taking a breath in, faith bit her lip and looked up at jayden. "i do have to be sorry, jay." she shut her eyes again and wanted to kick herself all over again. this was exactly what happened every time she wanted someone; she couldn't trust them so their relationship became ruined. something sparked inside her - faith would be damned if their relationship ended like that. jay was everything good in faith's life and she just... couldn't lose him. but she knew if she couldn't begin to trust him, he would be gone. why would he want to stick around with someone who couldn't trust him? "i'm being stupid. i want to trust you," faith exhaled deeply, feeling stressed. "but, i can't think clearly. i need some nicotine. i really do." she looked down at his hand on her leg and smiled slightly. of course, he was freezing, but the feel of it was amazing. "it's just... i find it hard to trust everyone. and i know you're not just anyone. you're jay. you're amazing and everything good in my life. and here i am screwing it up completely with my own issues," she let out another deep breath, still kicking herself. "i refuse to let this go badly... i -" faith stopped, taking in a shaky breath. "i'm going to get a cigarette. if you don't like people smoking, tell me and i'll smoke outside on the balcony," her eyes flickered over to the huge sliding doors leading outside to the balcony. she was guessing that jayden wouldn't like smoking and she'd have to get all cold outside. "i just need one, that's all." she pulled away from jayden's hand on her leg and rushed into her mess of a bedroom.

faith wanted to find a packet quickly so jayden wasn't left to his thoughts - she knew what he was like; he always daydreamed. she could tell he was in that sort of mood; he had been daydreaming and lost in his thoughts before she had crushed him all over again. after a few minutes of looking, faith realised her stash of cigarette packets usually were in her dc bag. and sure enough, there they were. letting out a breath she hadn't realised she was holding, faith straightened up and grabbed her lighter from the floor. she stepped out of the room with a packet of cigarettes and her lighter. faith's eyes flickered over to jayden and a stab of pain in her heart made her wince. "i'll smoke outside, it doesn't look too cold today." faith lied, but she didn't want jayden to feel even worse than he already did. faith stepped to the sliding doors and opened one of them. she sighed as she leaned against the balcony railing and opened her packet of cigarettes. in less than thirty seconds, faith was on to her second drag and was wondering what the hell she should do. sighing, she looked out to the scenery around her, hoping that would calm her and help her think better.

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[JAYDEN HARRIS KNIGHT]

"i do have to be sorry, jay." he continued to watch her as she spoke, but decided not to say anything else. being honest, this wasn't exactly the way jay had expected seeing faith for the first time in six years to go. he had been expecting a big hug, smiles and a long catch-up session about what happened to both of them in their time apart. not much to jay, really. he had been turned, that was about it. but, instead, what had really happened was an okay beginning, a kiss, an awkward silence followed by another kiss, jay waiting outside faith's room for half an hour for her to get changed, and now this - jay getting hurt as faith told him that she didn't really trust him. just fantastic, wasn't it? he didn't understand - he really didn't. he was still the same person she had met all those years ago. only know he was obviously older, taller and much faster and stronger. personality wise he was still that little thirteen year old, and he couldn't see why faith couldn't realize that. jay started to wonder; not about something completely off topic as he usually did, but he began to wonder about this. he realized that he wanted faith to understand that she could trust him so much, but really, if she kept on saying she couldn't, was it worth jay still sitting here trying? was it worth him getting hurt again, like that first day when she had left him? jay knew he was being stupid for thinking into it this much, and he knew for a fact that he wasn't just going to walk out now, but still.

"i just need one, that's all."

jay nodded slightly as she stood up, taking his hand and placing it back on his leg. cigarettes. ugh. he had always hated them, ever since he was a little kid when his father had blown cigarette smoke straight into his face when he was drunk one time. but he was drunk all the time. he didn't see the point of people smoking - everybody knows the risks of it before they start doing it, and yet they still do it. why? it didn't make people look cool, it just knocked time off your life with every single one you smoked. but if faith needed them, it wasn't like he was going to give her a full-blown speech about why smoking was wrong, and why she should quit, he wasn't like that. he mostly kept his opinions of other people to himself, unless it was speaking out against either the mafia, or the peacekeepers. he didn't agree with either side, and he wasn't;t scared of either side. he wasn't scared of anything. so whenever either side did something he didn't really like, he spoke out about it, straight to them. jay then realized that the mafia were probably plotting to kill him, especially if they found out about faith, and he knew the peacekeepers wouldn't be too keen on him, either. most vampires would think that, because jay hadn't chosen a side, that he was just useless, and couldn't help at all. but he liked it that way, that way neither side knew not to come to him for anything, and jay could just get on with his problems. and right now, he had a few, and most of those revolved around faith.

"i'll smoke outside, it doesn't look too cold today."

"okay..." jay honestly didn't know what it was like outside. his body temperature was constantly lower than faith's, but he was used to it. he stood up and walked out on to the balcony, leaning against the railing perpendicular to the one she was leaning against, looking out around the city of london. this way, none of faiths' smoke would reach him. the city was so alive at this time of day. however, alive london was a pretty ugly sound. the noise of cars and lorries were so loud and the noises coming from building sites were even worse. the birds flew incredibly high above, almost like they were protesting against london's corrupted atmosphere. jay decided to continue looking out, and also decided for faith to finish off his cigarette . he waited for her to say something, he himself not knowing what to say. and so the awkwardness began: faith smoking and jay looking out into london, which wasn't exactly the prettiest capital city in the world. now paris or rome, they were capital cities he would gladly look at all day, and he had been to each one. they were both beautiful, he couldn't pick a winner in his mind. a part of him did want to move away from london, but he knew in his head that there was no way he could. his whole life was here: his roots, the remnants of his family, his friends. it wasn't like he could pack all of them into a suitcase and take them with him, was it? that would be a nightmare at customs. so he guessed that he was stuck in london - it wasn't awful, he had spent long enough here as it was and now, thanks to being a vampire, he had forever to spend here.

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