Post by LORRAINE MICHAELA KESSLER on Jun 5, 2010 3:58:49 GMT
lorraine michaela kessler , ---------
------------------------------------------- EIGHTEEN , HUMAN , NEUTRAL , CONFUSED.
"I LISTEN TO THE SIRENS AS THEY SING ME BACK TO SLEEP, I PRAY THAT NO O
NE'S SERIOUSLY HURT, IT FEELS LIKE EVERYTHING IS DYING --------------------"
[/center][/blockquote][/blockquote]lorraine’s playlist.
maybe i know somewhere, deep in my soul, that love never lasts. and we’ve got to find other ways to make it alone, keep a straight face. and i’ve always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance. and up until now i had sworn to myself that i’m content with loneliness, because none of it was ever worth the risk. well, you are the only exception.
the only exception , paramore.
i fought it for a long time now while drowning in a river of denial. i washd up, picked up, fixed up all my broken things, ‘cause you left me police tape, chalk line, tequila shots in the dark scene of the crime. suburban living with a feeling that i’m giving up everything for you. oh, oh, oh, how was i supposed to know that you were o-o-over me? i think that i should go. and something’s telling me to leave but i won’t, ‘cause i’m damned if i do ya, damned if i don’t.
damned if i do ya, damned if i don’t , all time low.
so she said what’s the problem, baby. what’s the problem? i don’t know. well, maybe i’m in love, think about it. everytime, i think about it. can’t stop thinking ‘bout it. how much longer will it take to cure this? just to cure it ‘cause i can’t ignore it if it’s love. makes me wanna turn around and face me but i don't know nothing 'bout love. c’mon, c’mon. turn a little faster. c’mon, c’mon. the world will follow after. c’mon, c’mon. ‘cause everybody’s after love.
accidentally in love , counting crows.
things are looking up. oh, finally. i thought i’d never see the day when you smiled at me. we always pull through, oh when we try. i’m always wrong but you’re never right. oh, you’re never right. honestly, can you believe we cross the world while it’s asleep? i’ll never trade it in ‘cause i’ve always wanted this and it’s not a dream anymore. no. it’s a dream anymore. it’s worht fighting for.
looking up , paramore.
swears she’s okay. don’t need a witness to her feelings. she watches them escape. the good ones get away. so cut and paste and the stitches are revealing, unraveling this way. makes her feel ashamed. all around her people stare as she slowly falls apart, picking up pieces of clumsy little heart. it’s hard to know where you’re going when you don’t know where to start. but that’s just life and that’s the hardest part. that’s the hardest part. yeah, that’s the hardest part.
clumsy little heart , every avenue.
i got my mind set on you. there’s nothing you can do to change my mind about it. inside out, you’re beautiful. there’s nothing you can do to change my mind about you. it started innocent enough with a day just like any other. woke up late and running behind. americano on the corner, she came without a warning, knocked my drink all over me. she said: “sorry i was rushing and i gotta get to work”. after that i didn’t hear a single word she said. i was caught off guard by her turquoise eyes. i knew right then i had to make her mine.
mindset , every avenue.
picture perfect, that’s what it seems. they’ve got this whole thing figured out but not me. we’ll leave this place behind. doesn’t that feel right? picture perfect, it’s picture perfect. through the fire, through the smoke and the flames, in my reflection in the window, match my hand and i’m running. everyone’s screaming “you’re never gonna get there”. waking up, shaking, feels much better. and everyone’s saying “shape up and get a life”. if nothing goes wrong then how will it feel right? picture perfect doesn’t mean much to me.
picture perfect , every avenue.
lori’s diary. KEEP OUT!
may ninth, 2009.
jesa keeps trying to tell me some kind of secret. however, there’s always someone, somehow that got too close to us and she would say that she would tell me late. i asked her to send me a text message, but she said it was too risky, that they would find out. who the hell are they? why is jesabella so scared of them?
i thought she was never scared of anyone or anything. why now? i’m worryingabout her and getting frustrated that i can’t know why she is so damn scared. maybe when she will be ready, she will tell me. for now, i just have to be patient.. i guess.
may seventeenth, 2009.
jesabella disappeared. What the hell i thought she would have told me if something was wrong. i thought we were friends and she.. she ran away. just like that. seriously, what the hell is going on? we are starting to hear rumours around here about vampires roaming around. vampires, really? they couldn’t find anything bettter to put up on the news? pathetic. i mean, they’re only rumours, right? none of this can be real. i mean, we’re not in freaking twilight. anyway. with jesa’s disappearance and this vampire thing, i’m just so lost and confused. i don’t understand anything anymore. my world is crashin down, completely.
july first, 2009.
it’s real. everything’s real. it wasn’t only rumours. i thought.. but no. vampires do exist. for some reason, i’m not afraid as much as others are to go outside. i mean, normally, people would be scared to be bitten or something. but i’m not sared all that much.. i haven’t met any vampires yet and i haven’t had any problems. so what is the point in being so scared? vampires don’t go out during the day, right? at least, so i have heard. in fact, i have heard all kinds of things lately and i don’t really know what to believe anymore. or who to believe. how can i know who is telling the truth when everyone keeps saying different things from one day to another?
august fifth, 2009.
she was found in liverpool. well, she was dead. they said her body had been ripped apart by some kind of creature but they are not sure exactly what it was. stupid. it’s pretty obvious what it was. i mean, you don’t need to be a genius to know what happened. jesabella wanted to tell me a secret, obviously about vampires. they didn’t like that and they killed her. at least, that’s i think. however, as far as i know, i could be completely misunderstanding and wrong. her funerals will be in two weeks and i’m not really sure i want to go. i mean.. wouldn’t it be awkward?
november nineteenth, 2009.
my life without jesabella isn’t really waht we could call easy. and if it’s not easy, it’s complicated, obviously. in fact, i feel rather lonely right now. i don’t really have anyone to talk to about my problems, my feelings, my confusing thoughts anymore. i mean, i have my parents and this diary, but it’s not like i can tell everything to my parents and i can’t get comments from this diary. no, i can’t. i may be confused and completely lost right now, but just not that much. my parents are still scared to go outside. so much that they make me answer almost one thousand questions before i get out of the house, even if i’m only going to school. question such as where are you going, with who are you going, what time are you coming back, what are you going to do there, and much more. it’s getting ridiculous, to be honest. however, i kind of understand them, i guess. i’m their only daghter so they must really care about me.
january thirtieth, 2010.
life seems to finally have gone back to normal. my parents are less tressed about me getting out of the house and people seem less scared too when i do go out, on the rare occasions. it feels better to finally act normal. it feels like if a weight had been taken off of my chest and i was finally able to breathe freely. people out there also don’t talk about vampires as much as they did before. i mean, they still do because, obviously, vampires still exist. before, vampires would be everywhere. on the news, in the newspapers, on the internet, EVERYWHERE. hell, even at school, it was almost all we talked about for the beginning of our classes. i got quite tired of it after a while. and now? well, i’m just glad everything went back to normal. i just hope it will stay that way for a little while, but i guess only time will tell us..
HI, MY NAME IS ANNIE. I'M FIFTEEN YEARS OLD AND I'VE BEEN ROLEPLAYING FOR THREE YEARS. YOU CAN REACH ME THROUGH PM AND CBOX AND I ALSO PLAY NO ONE. I'D JUST LIKE TO SAY LORIIIIIIIII <3.
MADE BY LILLY CAN'T BE TAMED OF CAUTION 2.0.
