Post by LUCIANA CAMIELLE ROSSEAU on May 29, 2010 7:45:42 GMT
luciana camielle rosseau , -------------------
---------------------------------------------- NINETEEN ,HUMAN , HUMANS , FIESTY.
"MY BODY ROCKS A RHYTHEM, YOU BEAT MY DRUM HARD. I MIGHT JUST
KICK IT KICK IT. WE LIVE TO SHOCK IT SHOCK IT. I LIKE THAT-------------"
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APRIL 22ND
britan is dirty, i mean france was filthy but brittan is still dirty. i left paris last night and took the train down, although it is difficult considering my english is not a good as it should be, seven years in school taught me very little english . i only hope these idiots can speak french. i keep wondering if i did the right thing by leaving, the bruises on my cheek suggest that i did but i know that sebastian loves me. sometimes he just gets a little mad, everyone does, it’s not like i haven’t thrown things at him in the past but this was too much. i like a passionate man but enough is enough. it was odd, when i purchased a ticket for london, the man behind the counter asked me if i was sure i wanted to go. people seem to get stranger and stranger around here. i wouldn’t have asked for a ticket if i didn’t want to go. now i have to find a hotel for the night and look for a job in the morning. hopefully the hotels won’t be as dirty as the streets.
APRIL 27TH
this hotel isn’t as bad as i had thought; although apparently you need to know how to speak english around this town to get a job. i’m not giving up though, it’s hard, I’ve been so tempted to called sebastian and tell him i’m sorry, but i know if i go back i’ll be in so much trouble. i am sick of eating these packet noodles and i can’t figure out how to turn on this damn heater.
MAY 3RD
i got a job, thankgod i was starting to get quite a bill at this hotel. it’s not what i wanted, but i don’t have to talk. i’m ashamed to say i’m working as a stripper, at least i will be if i pass my trial. the money is good though and cash in hand, so it’s not like i have to pay taxes. however i do need to learn to walk, erm strut in heels. it can’t be that hard, can it? i mean all i have to do is take my clothes off with a lot of dirty old men watching me. ugh this is making my skin crawl, if i wasn’t so desperate for money i would have refused to do this.
MAY 9TH
i passed that stupid trial, i had to strip for the owner and i don’t remember feeling more disgusting in my entire life. he looked like a predator. anyway i’m only working three nights a week so that’s good and i only have to go on three times a night, the rest of the time i can stay back stage, unless someone requests me ,apparently. that means i have to strip in private rooms. the boss said doing…other things was optional and we get all the profit but i don’t think i’ll be doing that. i went on stage tonight, it wasn’t as bad as i excepted, maybe before it was just dusk and there weren’t many men there, but i’m pretty sure they could see me shaking. fifteen minutes and it was all over, my new boss said i could go home after that. the other girls looks…nice i suppose. there’s a few of them there that give me an odd feeling, like i should stay away, which i fully intend on doing. tomorrow i have to go pick up some…’costumes’ however i feel there will be less of the costume and more skin showing. this is making me so tense, it’s making me want to take up smoking again. oh god…i might still have one left. please god.
MAY 15TH
someone bit me tonight. a man. it hurt like fuck, he made me bleed. i freaked out. i mean i was at work, i’ve seen some weird things, already but i didn’t expect to get bitten! he requested me and i was dancing and… he just shot forwards and bit me. i reported it and my boss told me not to do it again, that i should have just let him do as he pleased instead of fighting back, he looked scared. i don’t understand what got him so spooked, if someone attacks me again i’m quitting. england is such a strange place.
MAY 16TH
apparently he was a vampire. everyone here is on crack. maybe i should leave.
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