Post by MITCHELL RHYS BIRLEY. on May 29, 2010 9:16:22 GMT
mitchell rhys birley , ------------------
----------------------------------- NINETEEN , VAMPIRE , VAMPIRES , DETERMINED.
"YOU ARE AN EXAMPLE OF, BETTER THINGS TO COME. SO WHY WAIT ON SOME
OTHER ESCAPE THAT LEADS ME NOWHERE FAST. I'VE GOT TO ASK. -------------"
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DECEMBER 15TH
wow. finding out you're adopted after nineteen years of believing you weren't actually hurts like hell. my head hurts from all the questions i've been asking myself. why was i given up? why when i was that young? did i do something bad? was i just a mistake that ruined someone's life? who are my birth parents? should i hate them? should i hate my foster parents for not telling me? they still haven't. they don't know that i know. i was going down to talk to them about going to this new club with rabbit. rabbit being russell mabbit. they were in the kitchen, yelling at each other about my birth parents. of course, at first i'd thought they were messing around until my father.. foster father turned around and said that just because my birth parents want to know about me, doesn't mean that they can. forget this. they've stopped shouting now. well, at least the whole street knows i'm an unwanted, adopted child. time to go and ask them about the club. and then act normal. rabbit will freak when i tell him..
DECEMBER 16TH
they told me. when i came home this morning. they were both sat in the living room and my foster mother was crying her eyes out. my f-father just turned around and went: 'mitchell, we have to tell you something. you're adopted, son.' and i just nodded and walked away. he called me son. i wasn't his real son. i didn't know how he could still look at me. knowing i wasn't actually his blood. i wish i was. they're so amazing to me. obviously way better than my birth parents were. i don't care what their reason for giving me up is. they can just forget about ever knowing a single thing about me. in fact, they no longer exist to me. i need to go tell my mum and dad things are going to be fine and that i love them. this is the way things are going to be around here now. just us.
DECEMBER 20TH
.. so i got this letter earlier. guess who from? my birth mother. mum didn't know. she thought it was from rabbit so she just gave it me and told me she'd shout me when dinner was ready. so i'd come upstairs and i'd read it. it's quite pathetic, actually.
dear mitchell,
it's your birth mother, right here. i'm pretty sure that emily and george have told you that you're adopted. i gave them enough warning when they took you away. i hope you're doing fine, dear. i'm so sorry for giving you up. i had my reasons and if you just came to see me one day, i'd be happy to just tell you everything about my life and why i couldn't keep you. you'd love it where we are. when you were a baby, your father would take you around the beach and you'd love to have your feet in the sand. we all miss you here. your brother is devastated now that we've told him. he wants to meet you and you'd make his life complete if you just gave us a chance. i'm not saying that you have to come back to live with us.. just.. give us a chance to show you that we do care. your birth name was lewis and if you were still here, you'd be lewis michael earnshaw. you have to give me a chance.. please. i love you and i'm sorry.
yours, clara earnshaw. xxxxxx
so i had a brother. and my real name was lewis. fuck that. my name's mitchell rhys birley and it always will be. if she thinks that i'm going to meet her, she's wrong. i've been perfectly fine without them for nineteen years, the rest of my life isn't going to hurt. i'll just write back calling her a bitch and telling her i hate her and don't want anything to do with her or the spawn that was obviously better than me. a night out with rabbit is what i need. i'll take the letter and we can burn it.
JANUARY 2ND
a lot of things changed this year. for starters... i got attacked two weeks ago. and since then.. i've kind of... changed. as a matter of fact, i nearly killed my father.. and.. actually killed my mother.. i.. and rabbit. i've locked myself in my room away from everyone. i'm scared.. i don't know what's going on. i killed them.. and then.. drank their blood. i feel lifeless. why me? why now? .. just why? the pain i have is horrible. i want control.. i want to go back to normal.
JANUARY 20TH
things.. are.. kind of getting a little.. WORSE. i haven't been out of my room since the second of january. my father keeps knocking on my door and asking if i need anything but i can.. smell something on him that smells so delicious. it just makes me want to rip the door open and take from him whatever it is that makes me so thirsty.. and hungry. he's here again, right now. he pretended to walk downstairs but i can smell him. i need whatever it is that he's got. right now. i'm just going to open to door and just.. take it from him before he can see what a mess i am.
FEBRUARY 1ST
i killed him.
APRIL 10TH
.. i nearly killed the mailman.
APRIL 20TH
i feel.. different. like. i don't want to kill.. i just want to eat. or drink. from what i've done, it would seem i'm a vampire. but.. that's stupid, right? of course it is..
MAY 4TH
i'm a vampire. i went downstairs and looked on the news. it happens i'm not the only one out there. i would be happy. if we weren't illegal monsters.
MAY 25TH
i cleaned myself up today and managed to open the door to a little girl selling cookies. i didn't eat her. she looked too cute..
HI, MY NAME IS CASSIE. I'M FIFTEEN YEARS OLD AND I'VE BEEN ROLEPLAYING FOR THREE YEARS YOU CAN REACH ME THROUGH PM ME OR CBOX AND I ALSO PLAY CONNOR THORPE AND ALEX MCLAIR I'D JUST LIKE TO SAY OMNOMNOM. I MISSED MITCH. <3
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